I'm just an ordinary girl that writes about disease. Not sure when I became this sage; a writer of all that is wise and whatever. I am not. I am still learning. But I do know this so I am sharing.
It is relevant so this is for you and you know who you are.
If someone feels they are better off without you, let them go. Peace out. Let them FEEL what it is like to be without you. It's not punishment. It's science. It's figuring out where you are meant to be. It's Diving Purpose.
Let’s say they were right and life is a lush utopia without you. Peace be with you still. Chest bumps!
Now you know your time will be better spent elsewhere. The universe wants you to be with people who are better for having been with you. The universe wants you to BETTER the world.
Sometimes we get confused between bitter and better. Don't let emotions get the best of your life.
So, if you miss them. Kick something harmless, regroup and go make the world a better place. Do you know how many scars I have over scenarios like this? If you could only see. Love has kicked the shit out of me because I am a romantic and I want to save the world. I GET it.
I do. I have loved and lost and thrown a pie across a room, furniture out windows. I get it now. Maybe I can save you some time and pie. GO where you are needed. Leave when you are depreciated. AND, it hurts but hallelujah for getting distractions out of your life. If I know one thing it is that TIME here is so limited. Fuck distractions. Use your time wisely. I was 17 two minutes ago and will be forty in just weeks.
Scars make us callous in some ways, but better able to continue and to serve. They help us find our way home. There's a light on somewhere for you. Someone is waiting and beckoning you home. They need you. Go. I bet they take your hand, calloused and all. I bet they don't even feel callouses. Just you. Smooth. And they are better, not bitter, for holding them.
*Note that multiple sclerosis did not come up in this conversation. Good! MS has NOTHING to do with someone's WORTH. It has much to do with my understanding of how short our time is though. Still. Nothing to do with our value as human beings.